I'm walking on winter paths
the earth is frozen
and cold
But I grab the little snowflakes
swirling around me
like happy couples

A cold wind starts to blow
He
is not here, not with me
to warm me, to embrace me
Wouldn't it be more fair
if he loved me?

But no
it's better this way
and with a smile on my face
I dance..

11/19/01~
** strange?

feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3815 Mon, 19 Nov 2001 12:06:50 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3807/t/It-s-what-makes-this-a-home-.html and even after being gone
for so many days, weeks
or even minutes
i must go through the motions again.

picking up where i left off,
trying to express to you
the very things i can't.
but somehow, you manage
to always understand my thoughts.

even when i don't.

I don't need to hear
the sound of your voice
to know that you care
about me and my life,
I'll just read your words and understand.

We don't need to... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (fallen angel) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3807 Sun, 18 Nov 2001 23:28:22 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3822/t/-.html
Object of my affection,
this time it's your eyes
which you rubbed gently
b*tching about your contacts
that you've been wearing
since that Thursday when I
caught you falling in love with me.
And now it's the shape of your... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Wrath) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3822 Sun, 18 Nov 2001 22:34:41 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3820/t/Invisible.html
I'm tired of waiting my turn..
when everyone else has three.

I'm exhausted of putting in a hundred percent,
when only twenty of it can be seen.

I'm bored of false pretense
as it boosts an imaginary authority.

I'm sick of lies and dishonesty
from the solitude of priority.

So now,... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Aela) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3820 Sun, 18 Nov 2001 17:54:23 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3821/t/remebering.html with part of you
still a part of me

i used to fall asleep
with the sound of your voice
pressing my ear

now i just daydream
because i can no longer sleep

i remember, with a smile
the winters i could trace
your footsteps visiting my front door

look into the eyes you were once so afraid

the lessons you taught
you were unaware

it has been five years past
since i last truly heard you speak

i will hear... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (faeriegirl) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3821 Sun, 18 Nov 2001 15:31:53 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3816/t/Dirt-Road.html her trenchcoat dragging behind her,
a bloody stream from her orbs doth flow,
the pain and sorrows in each drip.
Though she screams she's too far gone
for her cries to touch sane ears.
She screams a bit louder,
though she knows they wouldn't come if they did hear.
For she who walks alone walks also in the dark,
though the sun shine in other worlds,
tis risen in her heart.
She raises up her head,
allowing tresses into her... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3816 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 23:20:00 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3809/t/Door.html lieing here up in my head
feelings mixed
broke and unfixed
death, the way out
the locked door

cold, dead, nothing
this is the sharpened end
i hold in my hand
the slender curve, the grooved edge
i hold in my hand
my key

you are the bar
the restraint, even so far
you are an iron grip
dulling the tip
pulling away
stoping the fade
my love

feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3809 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 23:16:41 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3812/t/i-cant-believe-all-this-time.html i cant believe all this time
ive sat and thought to myself
about the wonderful times
we had together
just you and i
laughing at life
enjoying classic movies
induldging on a pint
of Ben and Jerry's
like two lil kids
with not a care in this world

and as i look back
it makes me sad
cause i miss those times
we had together
just laughing and singing
[making music videos
with your outrageous voice]
and driving down main... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (chichiri no aisai) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3812 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 20:13:56 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3823/t/the-patron-saint.html upon which others feast
and pay homage in this greedy town.
they worship at the most deliberate
of their own times, leaving her haggard and disabled.

"you are so beautiful..."
oh... but alas, those lubricious words,
a superficial declaration to feel
love in such a dire and unforgivable way.

pathos swadles itself over a vapored knoll
as i compel myself onward to that enlightened path.
many wonderments and... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (faeriegirl) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3823 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 18:53:42 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3819/t/-Osmosis-for-Binomial-Homo-Sapiens-.html
Let me introce at you : the Binary language
Digital tounges discriminating
Black or White and never gray
Our sneering logic as mice and men

Birthday cakes with decimal candles
Birthday presents every seven months
With birthday candles by the 5.5's
With triangular shape and clay made-boxes

I fancy the cobbled crumbs of bread
and the cone filled pleasures of the wine
But let me stop, "let me change"
To... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Viattor ) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3819 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 12:10:06 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3817/t/The-Morning-After.html the light

because

Too much of one thing
can never be enough.

The morning after
my dance in the dark
I realized

that I only wanted to be free.

These tears
I cry...

I don't know why
they come...

I tell myself
that I have no shame.

but

Dear Lord,

save me.

feeds@yuku.com (April Michelle) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3817 Sat, 17 Nov 2001 09:59:49 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3814/t/Bar-Star.html see what is there!
Can't you see that
you're slowly killing yourself
with every shot you shoot
and every smoke you light?
Pull up the sleeves
on your too tight shirt,
see those marks?
Do you remember the pain
or only the bliss that it brought?

I can't stand by
and watch you waste your life.
If you can't see what you're doing
then you can't see me.
I can't constantly be there
holding your hair out of your face
and... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Sardonic) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3814 Fri, 16 Nov 2001 15:20:41 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3826/t/In-the-Temple-of-the-Serpent.html Hold the guild dagger to my breast, surface will not break
Bearing the venomous fangs of deceit
The nothing my chaple, everything my sin
Slink into rhyme, flaunting reason
Shallow eye follow me hence
Tied to that unbareable Rood, breath
My own blood forsakens me
Sluggishly filling bodice venues
Receeding at freedoms first glance
My loathing, my offering

Stars shining like little holes of light trying to get out
My... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (NeCro X2) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3826 Fri, 16 Nov 2001 11:25:44 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3811/t/close-your-eyes-and-stop-time.html every moment full of pain
when you feel with all that's in you
like you wont feel whole again

Sometimes time is on the inside
when the timing is too slow
And the moments fall together
with a wisdom they wont show

So you shatter with the pieces
of the memories you had
Till you forget to remember
all the moments you were sad

"No slave to certainty,Loyal to noone,we are the height of fashion..."

]]> feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3811 Fri, 16 Nov 2001 05:45:48 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3818/t/The-Tears-Rain.html shed the tears, feel the lies
shed the skin, feel it die
woke up this morning, hole and new
only to be broken again, cracked in two
warn and split, one more thing to do
slowly slide
in the metal I confide
the blood runs dry
inflict the pain
slowly it drains
strength wains
the tears rain

http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3818 Thu, 15 Nov 2001 23:30:43 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3813/t/untitled.html ~


Pale skin pale
Soul
Spirits wearing thin
It's all metallic lavender
And the lilies in the garden scream
And melt in contemplation
I am lost and scared and scarred
Numb limbs numb
Soul
If I could float away I would
Into black forever-nothing
Converging with the stars
But I wither in evergrey
Cold hands cold
Mind
Trapped but not afraid
The walls are black and... ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Cloaked in Sin) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3813 Thu, 15 Nov 2001 23:00:38 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3810/t/Utopia.html Utopic visions
cluttered mind, lost thoughts, my life
break these chains that bind

I think I have a knack for this...? ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3810 Thu, 15 Nov 2001 22:35:48 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3824/t/-untitled-.html once very dear to me
and yet i am in danger
of forgetting how to see
for his mask hides only so much
and his eyes hide even less
i fear falling into this rut
for then id be defenseless
but the promises held
in those deep blue eyes
the way bodies meld
its no surprise
that im already lost.



(this was something i typed up for my away mssg on aim, and then i decided that i liked it...) ]]> feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3824 Thu, 15 Nov 2001 22:14:56 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3808/t/Unity.html wrapping in a fingery embrace.

A pair of eyes meet each other,
telling silent stories of
pain and betrayal.

A pair of lips touch another pair of lips,
and all the pain,
all the betrayal
melts
into
a sea of love...

And what started as
a pair of hearts...

Now is just one.

]]> feeds@yuku.com (Unregistered(d)) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3808 Thu, 15 Nov 2001 09:18:05 GMT http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3825/t/Deep-thought-by-Del-.html What truly horrible lives they must lead."
- Charles Bukowski

(heehee.... I think this is one of my favs!)

When you say words
alot they don't mean
anything. Or maybe
they don't mean
anything anyway,
and we just think
they do.

]]> feeds@yuku.com (Delirium) http://civitasdei.yuku.com/topic/3825 Tue, 06 Nov 2001 18:46:22 GMT